Hello, I’m Peter and I am 26 years old I currently attend Dudley College and I’m looking for work. I haven’t had a great life which you will find out soon enough. So where should I begin? Let’s start the very beginning.
I was born January 9th 1988 I’m not too sure what time it was but that’s not important. hah. Anyway I technically have 2 brothers and 1 sister but I no longer have any contact with my oldest Brother, Sister or my Mum.
When I was a couple of years old our family went to Spain on holiday but i can’t remember any of that except for a dream I had on the plane or somewhere. While we were away on holiday our neighbors broke into out house and stole everything and when we got back our house was ransacked and I don’t know if they got caught. They also treated to kill me and my siblings because we called the police. So we moved from there to a place called Pelsall.
Pelsall wasn’t any better because when i was growing up my brothers and sister used to beat me daily and not just siblings fighting but full on beating the crap out of me. I admit I wasn’t the most behaved child but I don’t think I deserved that and I’m sure I wouldn’t as been as bad if I grew up in a loving home.
I have always been overweight even though I did sports and went out everyday. Due to my weight I attracted so much negativity from strangers on the street and people used to throw abuse at me as they passed by in cars or walking by me. I also had strangers attack me for no other reason than fun. I didn’t have many friends just one true friend. We no longer talk but I still see his dad every now and then. When I went to his house it was the best time of my life because they treated me like family.
I never liked going to school, I didn’t know why back then but I think it was because I didn’t have any friends and I don’t like big groups of people. That feeling as stuck with me all my life. Social services threatened to make away form my family because I didn’t go which made things even worse for me. They didn’t even bother to help me just throw threats about.
My oldest brother had drug dealers as friends and they used to do everything from our house so of course that attracted trouble. One night we had the whole street full of teenagers attacking our house and they didn’t leave until the police came. It was a terrifying experience.
I never had a girlfriend, I mean who wants a fat boyfriend? but the people I hanged with the most made things worse for me. When I was 10 they and this girl forced me to kiss the girl and laughed at me because I wasn’t very good at kissing. I haven’t kissed a girl since then. Also some girls groped me and laughed at me. I was 10 then as well. I’m very insecure about my body now.
when I was 13 I went to a school that supported people who didn’t like big schools so I went there until I left when I was 16. I didn’t do great in my GCSE’s and I feel so bad about that. I still got abuse thrown at me and it just made me feel so terrible so when I was 18 I stopped going out altogether. I stayed in my house for 7 years and only started going again last year but it’s only been this year I started to go out fully. I’m at college, I went to Germany and I’m going to Florida in December.
I still struggle with talking to people and I get really nervous around groups. I can’t go to restaurants to order food or drinks and I can not talk to people on the phone. I only talk to people I’m used to. It’s soul crushing knowing I don’t having friend or anyone to love me.
Anyway that’s my past and may explain why I am but let me tell you what I like. I love going to the cinema, (I’m used to going there now) I love games and JRPGs are my favourite. If I had to choose a favourite game I would pick Final fantasy X or Dragon Quest X. I love playing on my Playstation 4 and 3 and I can’t wait for FFXV and Kingdom Hearts 3. I like singing along to music even though I’m terrible at it. I don’t have any special talent but I am a nice and kind person who puts other before myself. I love watching Anime and One Piece is my favourite although I like most Animes. My favourite books are the Harry Potter books. I can’t wait to visit the world of Harry Potter at Universal in December.
Thanks for reading.