About me and update about how I am

Hello, I’m Peter and I am 26 years old I currently attend Dudley College and I’m looking for work. I haven’t had a great life which you will find out soon enough. So where should I begin? Let’s start the very beginning.

I was born January 9th 1988 I’m not too sure what time it was but that’s not important. hah. Anyway I technically have 2 brothers and 1 sister but I no longer have any contact with my oldest Brother, Sister or my Mum.

When I was a couple of years old our family went to Spain on holiday but i can’t remember any of that except for a dream I had on the plane or somewhere. While we were away on holiday our neighbors broke into out house and stole everything and when we got back our house was ransacked and I don’t know if they got caught. They also treated to kill me and my siblings because we called the police. So we moved from there to a place called Pelsall.

Pelsall wasn’t any better because when i was growing up my brothers and sister used to beat me daily and not just siblings fighting but full on beating the crap out of me. I admit I wasn’t the most behaved child but I don’t think I deserved that and I’m sure I wouldn’t as been as bad if I grew up in a loving home.

I have always been overweight even though I did sports and went out everyday. Due to my weight I attracted so much negativity from strangers on the street and people used to throw abuse at me as they passed by in cars or walking by me. I also had strangers attack me for no other reason than fun. I didn’t have many friends just one true friend. We no longer talk but I still see his dad every now and then. When I went to his house it was the best time of my life because they treated me like family.

I never liked going to school, I didn’t know why back then but I think it was because I didn’t have any friends and I don’t like big groups of people. That feeling as stuck with me all my life. Social services threatened to make away form my family because I didn’t go which made things even worse for me. They didn’t even bother to help me just throw threats about.

My oldest brother had drug dealers as friends and they used to do everything from our house so of course that attracted trouble. One night we had the whole street full of teenagers attacking our house and they didn’t leave until the police came. It was a terrifying experience.

I never had a girlfriend, I mean who wants a fat boyfriend? but the people I hanged with the most made things worse for me. When I was 10 they and this girl forced me to kiss the girl and laughed at me because I wasn’t very good at kissing. I haven’t kissed a girl since then. Also some girls groped me and laughed at me. I was 10 then as well. I’m very insecure about my body now.

when I was 13 I went to a school that supported people who didn’t like big schools so I went there until I left when I was 16. I didn’t do great in my GCSE’s and I feel so bad about that. I still got abuse thrown at me and it just made me feel so terrible so when I was 18 I stopped going out altogether. I stayed in my house for 7 years and only started going again last year but it’s only been this year I started to go out fully. I’m at college, I went to Germany and I’m going to Florida in December.

I still struggle with talking to people and I get really nervous around groups. I can’t go to restaurants to order food or drinks and I can not talk to people on the phone. I only talk to people I’m used to. It’s soul crushing knowing I don’t having friend or anyone to love me.

Anyway that’s my past and may explain why I am but let me tell you what I like. I love going to the cinema, (I’m used to going there now) I love games and JRPGs are my favourite. If I had to choose a favourite game I would pick Final fantasy X or Dragon Quest X. I love playing on my Playstation 4 and 3 and I can’t wait for FFXV and Kingdom Hearts 3. I like singing along to music even though I’m terrible at it. I don’t have any special talent but I am a nice and kind person who puts other before myself. I love watching Anime and One Piece is my favourite although I like most Animes. My favourite books are the Harry Potter books. I can’t wait to visit the world of Harry Potter at Universal in December.

Thanks for reading.

I’m back

Well I’m back on Tumblr although my main blog is on a different site. It’s good to see you all again.


Good evening my lovely readers.

I have some good news and that is my holiday has been book. Yay! I’m so excited, I will be staying at the Lake Buena Vista Hotel and Spa. It’s looks amazing hotel and I’m so glad I got it booked. I will be going the 16th May and it’s for a week but I’m hoping to stay longer.

I will take lots of pictures as I explore Universal Studios and Disney world and the rest of Orlando. I’m most excited about going to The Magical World of Harry Potter, I want to try a Butterbeer.

I want to say a BIG thank you to all my friends on Twitter who have helped me get through hard times, you all mean so much to me.

Thank you for reading


New Year, New Me

Hello readers

It is a new year and that means I will try and improve myself. I know it will be difficult and me being alone doesn’t help but I am determined to do it. I already have lost some weight, so I am going to keep at it. xD

It’s my birthday today and even though I was expecting it to be terrible, it still hurt not receiving anything. :( Anywho it doesn’t matter because the future looks bright for me. I’m hoping to get better and I will be going on holiday to Florida, to Universal Studios. xD

Thank you everyone who has wished me a Happy Birthday today, t means a lot to me. :)

I will try and write more blog posts so you have something to read. :p

Thank you for reading


Just a dream?

Just a dream?



Sitting here all alone thinking of you

Although I don’t know who you are yet

Thinking of all the things we can do

and telling the story about how we met

I can’t wait to hold you for the first time

To do all the things that people in love do

I’m hoping one day your love will be mine

And hearing you say “I love you”

I’m excited to hear you say yes

To that one question every girl wants to hear

I bet you will look so beautiful in the white dress

and me next to you with nothing to fear

Time sure does fly by

when you’re with the person you love

I know this isn’t goodbye

you’ve left me something to think of

Will this be reality or just a dream

All I can do is hope and pray

That you have the same dream

and we will have that perfect day

Annnnd that’s it. I hope you enjoyed the pictures. I’m not a photographer so I do apologise if they are crappy. :p

Still more to come. :)

Photos of the sea life. I will upload the rest in the next post.

First Day Out in 6 Nearly 7 years

Hey readers, I just like to say I’m so happy today. Today I finally went out for the first time in 7 years. I went to Birmingham to meet some awesome friends. They were so lovely and I didn’t had to worry at all.

We went to the Sea Life Centre and had an amazing time looking at all the fish and sharks. We took some great pictures and yes I still think I look terrible in photos. haha. All the pictures I took are on my twitter. It really was a great day.

After we finished at the Sea Life Centre I decided to call it a day because I was starting to hurt and I didn’t want to slow Sarah and Kelly down but before I went back to train station we stopped for an ice cream and some milkshakes. I had bubblegum flavour ice cream, it was delicious.

Sarah and Kelly were so lovely that that saw me off at the train station. you couldn’t ask for better friends than these two.

well that was my day and I hoped you enjoyed reading it as much as I experienced it. :p

Thanks for reading.


Who I Am

Why must I be alone every single day? What have I done to deserve this? I’m sorry I’m not the most attractive guy around and I’m so sorry that I’m useless to everyone. I wish I could change that but I can’t.

I can’t be an asshole because I am not mean. I’m a huge dork, I love Anime and I love games and I will not change that for anyone because that is who I am. I am also a hopeless romantic, yes I will bring you flowers if you’re feeling down and I will look after you if you’re felling ill. I will try my hardest to make you happy and I will never ever make you cry. I would give you my heart to keep forever and never ever break yours. That is who I am.

I just wish that I could have someone that accepts me for who I am and embraces it.

anyway thanks for reading my terrible blog, it really means a lot. :)


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A Blog About Me

Well what can I say about myself? I'm Peter Boyd and I have Agoraphobia.

I love gaming and reading and everything about Japan.

I love watching Anime and reading Manga.

My dream is to visit Japan and live there.




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